The last couple of weeks have had me reeling, as I have received news of my older brother's passing, planning his funeral, dealing with family and friend issues and just trying to make sure everyone, in general, is happy. Tomorrow, we will have a private family burial and that will be it. That. Will. Be. It.
This, once again, has been a huge wake-up call to me. Especially since he died of a heart attack. No prior warning symptoms. He just collapsed and died. The toxicology report won't be in for a while, but my guess is that it was what they call the 'Widow Maker.' He was 48 years old.
I'm not quite sure how to feel about it all. Losing a sibling is like losing a part of yourself, no matter how old you are. We buried our mother about four years ago and I can tell you that from my perspective, this is very different for some reason. I am sad and I am going to allow myself to have some down time... I don't plan to stay in this place emotionally, but I am planning to do some reflecting on my life, my dreams, my hopes, goals and then get to work at making them happen. Right now, I just need to catch my breath and think about my brother, my grieving dad and try to make some sense of it all.
Again... as if I haven't stressed this point enough throughout this blog 'o mine... LIVE YOUR LIFE. What are you waiting on? We are not promised tomorrow. We aren't even promised our next breath. You only get one chance to get it right. Treat others (especially those closest to you) as you would want to be treated. Reach out to those who are in need or hurting and go above and beyond to be of service. Quit focusing on the bad things in life... try turning that around and look for the good. Live a life of gratitude, even (and especially) in the bad times. Random acts of kindness (especially for a stranger) can go a long way and make a huge difference in someone's day.
Remember: Now is the time. The time is now. You will never get this moment back.
Go out and be the change you want to see made in this world.
S.
2 comments:
A very eloquent wake-up call. Thanks S.
Thank you for holding me up during this extremely hard time. xo
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