September 10 marked the two year anniversary of my Quadruple Bypass. When I look back over those two years, I'd love to be able to say that I've come so far, but in all honesty, some days I wonder. I wonder why it had to me and seemingly continues to be me with various issues related to my heart. I wonder why it happened in the first place. I wonder why it took such a drastic event to make me realize my life was passing me by at an alarming rate. Whatever the reason, it's done and this is where I'm at in life. Not exactly a fun place, but it is what it is... for now. I also wonder what a Wendy's Cheeseburger would taste like now. Oh, and maybe a little celebration cupcake... I do so love me some cupcake!
I'm not sure what the future holds, but if I spent my days totally absorbed in those thoughts, letting my mind go 'there', who knows where I'd be. Most likely, not in a good place! Maybe it has something to do with that second year when so often they (who are 'they', anyway) say there's just something about the second year being more of a year of reflection. I can say that there may be some truth in that... at least in my case. I've made some decisions in and for my life that have enabled me to overcome several fears that have plagued me all my life and I've done each one without regret. The only regret I have is that I didn't do them sooner, while in better health.
I've learned it's vitally important to love extravagantly and radically. You never know when you'll take your last breath on this earth and you don't want anyone left wondering what they meant to you.
I've learned the importance of letting new people into my little circle of friends. You never know how those new lives can enhance yours and challenge you to do/be better in many ways.
I've learned to let go of the junk that really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. Being able to forgive and move on is an amazingly freeing experience.
I've learned to appreciate the little things in life.
I've learned that it's not what or how much you have that brings true happiness. It can all be taken away in the blink of an eye.
I've learned that it's important to bring only encouragement and words of peace to those around me. I know too many people who never have anything good to say about anyone or anything and it's not a very attractive quality to have. As a matter of fact, I'm considering taking a hiatus from Facebook for this very reason. We'll see...
There are so many things I've learned over the last two years, but probably one of the things that sticks out in my head the most is that time is short... you just never know. Live, love and laugh... my daughter gave me a bracelet that says these things and it's my absolute favorite. I wear it just about everyday to remind me to do just what it says. If you're not doing it, try it. I highly recommend it!
If you want a change in your life, go out and do something toward being the change you want to see made!
S.

2 comments:
It is a lot to get your arms wrapped around. It is kinda hard to put in the back of your mind when it controls so much of what you are able to do. I've enjoyed reading some of your post. I will catch some more later.
Personally I've never been one to think much about scars in a negative light. It's kinduva it's where I've been thing.
Dear Suthern... It has been a lot to deal with, but I still here and I'm still learning something new, every day, about my coping skills.
It's been interesting to hear the differing opinions about the scar, I must say. As for now, it's staying where it is and I'm good with that.
Thanks for stopping by... have a great day!!
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